For three years, I have been riding around in a sleek Dodge Magnum, Big Bertha. She was a beauty. She withstood her bangs, her hits, and she kept on ticking. With my future heading in the direction of occupational therapy and knowing that my last two semesters, I could be placed in Fieldwork any where and my car did not get good gas mileage, she, Bertha, and her Hemi were not going to work forever. Yet I still resisted the change. When it comes to change, I have a hard time dealing with it. I usually think out things and rationalize things before I go for them. I got a phone call from a car dealership in late April about my vehicle and the possibility to trade it with no money down. I thought about it, I looked over my options and I procrastinated. The young man Marcus called more than once. Even when my sister went in and purchased her Impala SS, I still didn’t think about buying another vehicle. I thought of all of my plans that I had for my Magnum. Which none of those plans included trading it.
At some point in time, I calculated what the cost would be to keep my car. She is a good car, but she drinks gas. Then I thought about what it would mean if I got a more gas efficient vehicle. I looked around after the first phone call and evaluated my options and knew that a Toyota Prius was my choice. I walked into the dealership yesterday, met with Jeff the manager and Paul my sales person (whom sold my sister her Impala SS) and began the process. We had to drive a Jeep Commander (which is huge with three rows of seats) from Charlotte, NC to Concord, NC to get her. We arrived, traded the Commander for my Prius. I was still unsure as to whether or not I would be able to walk away from the dealership with this vehicle with no money down. That was the other catch, Marcus told me because I was an existing customer, I would walk out with any car I wanted at zero down, I just have to repeat that again because I still can’t believe it. When I arrived at 4:45pm, which I told them that I would be there at 5:00pm, Marcus wasn’t there, but Paul was there. Paul did a great job. We joked and laughed, he looked at my current vehicle and took down information about it. Jeff worked hard to work the numbers to where I could afford the vehicle and by nine last night, I was the owner of a 2010 Toyota Prius. We did the run through, I had driven her from Concord to Charlotte and she drives like a dream.
Yet, change is difficult. I woke this morning, looked out of the window and saw the Prius and not the Magnum, I felt sad because the Magnum had been with me for three long and difficult years, but the sadness passed quickly. This car is a part of my future and I have to let go of my past. Change is hard to deal with and it is hard to accept sometimes, but as I rode around in her (her name has not been picked yet) I began to feel more confident with my decision. I felt more confident in the direction that my future is heading.
I say if you are like me, embrace change. I still don’t like change and fear rejection but as I have gotten older, I have been able to deal with these things. Writing also helps because it’s cathartic to express my fears and deal with them through words. Give it a try, it’s awesome. Change is coming to grips that things can not stay the same always.